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So going into this I'd like to say, I HAVE NOTHING DONE. No pictures, no real goals. I'm where I started. So with that, I'd like to promise you. PROMISE, that I will be putting up a picture everyday for the rest of July until the 22, when I board a plane to population. They won't suck either, hopefully. But yes, commitment is what I need most.
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Poor words in the middle of the sentence. They never get to be capitalized.

It's going to warm up this week; the man at Zamzoes said we were in for a long wet spring. Hopefully it will stop snowing now.

I came to the realization today that fake flowers are like Dildos. I don't really think I need to elaborate.

Paper Town is a boring book. The title is a good metaphor though. I live for pretentious metaphors.

I've been reading a lot more than I ever have in the past. I'm also becoming a lot more chill in context to how I feel about people; they do their thing, I do mine. Tennis starts tomorrow. Youth court is really fun. I think I'll start looking for a job. I have a headache, and I'm debating whether I will stay home tomorrow or not. It's gotten a lot better since I took a shower, but still.  I think I'll delete my facebook; there is a cat in my lap and it's freaking me out. School is normal. Things aren't really interesting. Things aren't really bad. Life is abnormally effectless. Maybe that's a good thing.

I'm excited for spring. I'm more excited for warm sunny days.

Answer me these three questions:
1. Are you more excited for warm weather or spring break?
2. Do you have any plans for spring break?
3. Read any good book recently?
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Cinderella:
[ ] One of your parents is dead
[ ] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[x] You love to dress up.
[x] You love animals.
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming. (I'm waiting for a better computer, does that count?)
[ ] Your mom is really strict.
[ ] that's just because she got knocked up
[ ] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you (lol, no)
[x] You're afraid to speak your mind sometimes (All the time.)
[ ] You have left your shoes at a friends house before
[ ] You have blond hair
TOTAL: 4

Belle (Beauty and the Beast):
[x] You've kissed someone your friends didn't like
[x] You've been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[ ] You are not shy at all
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird
[x] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need
[x] You've had guys like you only because they think you're pretty (probably not, but here's to self esteem!)
[x] You've rejected at least one person when they've asked you out. ( A few.)
TOTAL: 9

Jasmine (Aladdin):
[ ] Your dad is VERY rich
[ ] You are very clever (I am when I sleep.)
[x] You've been with someone way different from you.
[x] You're unique and different from everyone else.
[ ] You'd never marry someone just because they were rich (Life goal, WHAT?)
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[ ] You don't have a lot of friends(... I think I have a few... ^^;)
[x] You're independent
[ ] You are wealthy
[x] Your parents try to control your life (Mi madre, pero esta bien)
TOTAL: 5

Ariel (The Little Mermaid):
[ ] Your parents expect a lot from you
[x] You really try to follow the rules, but it's hard for you
[ ] You're a bit of a trouble maker
[x] You're the youngest in your family
[ ] You have a lot of sisters
[ ] You collect something
[x] You have/had long hair (LONG RED FAGGOT HAIR!)
[x] You are adventurous
[x] You're extremely curious
[x] You believe everything people tell you/you're a bit gullible
TOTAL: 6

Snow White:
[ ] You know that you're beautiful (As if. lawl)
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[x] You've almost been killed
[x] You have at least seven good friends
[ ] You've had food poisoning
[x] You have/had short hair. (back in my dike phase)
[x] You get along with almost everyone (... Because I'm a tool.)
[x] All of your friends are different
[x] You love to have a good time
[x] You're happier when you're out of the house than in
TOTAL: 7

Mulan:
[x] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[ ] People wish you could be a bit more girly
[x] You've pretended to be someone you're not
[ ] You've had a physical fight with someone
[x] You have/had considered running away from home
[x] Your parents try to plan your life out
[x] A lot of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[x] You love your family so much that you'd do anything to protect them (Only my brother and sister)
TOTAL: 7

Aurora (Sleeping Beauty):
[ ] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents (I wish.)
[x] You almost died at a very young age (lololol End the problem before it spreads)
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful (Apparently I'm too nice?)
[x] You have a decent singing voice (It's okay...)
[x] You like to sleep in late on the weekends (SLEEP <3)
[x] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You're adopted
[x] You're very romantic (I try not to show it...)
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL: 6

Pocahontas:
[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[ ] You are more spiritual than religious
[ ] You've been in an interracial relationship
[x] One of your family members is dead
[x] Your parents are very protective of you
[x] Someone you know has been in war
[x] You love nature
[ ] You have/had black hair
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
[x] You're very adventurous
TOTAL: 7

Tinker Bell (Peter Pan):
[x] You get jealous easily
[x] You loved your childhood
[x] You like to fly (... Because I totally have tried it...)
[ ] You believe in magic.
[ ] You're 5'2 or under
[ ] You hate pirates
[ ] You love sparkles (GAY GAY GAY)
[x] People underestimate you
[x] You get angry easily (I just grumble to myself though...)
[ ] You have/had a tree house (I WISH!)
TOTAL: 5

Alice (Alice In Wonderland):
[x] You have/had a pet rabbit
[x] You love to play cards
[x] You constantly know the time
[x] You get in sticky situations
[x] You have been to a court
[x] You have fallen asleep while doing homework
[x] You have had a tea party
[x] You love hats
[ ] You are constantly lost (I have an awesome sense of direction!)
[x] You know how to play croquet
TOTAL: 9 <3

Meg (Hercules):
[ ] Your boyfriend is strong. (lol, I only date men who are mistaken for females.)
[x] You have gotten involved with the wrong people before
[x] You are very convincing (When people don't know me, lol)
[x] You have fallen in love before
[x] You have had your heartbroken ;_;
[x] You love Greek mythology
[x] You lie sometimes (I'm really bad at not...)
[x] You pretend to be someone you're not (ahahaha, past tense... Right)
[x] You have been used. (Again... Should be in present)
[ ] Purple is one of your favorite colors.
TOTAL: 8

So I'm either Alice or Belle... But I want to be Alice... Because she's a cool kid. Only in Country of Hearts though. >:

1.) Are you really ready for 125 questions?
Lawl. I should go sleep.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
... Ugh, yes.

3) Do you believe in God?
I'm agnostic.

4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
Mabs, like an hour ago.

5) Do you regret it?
No, I loves Mabs more than anyone.

6) Have you ever been depressed?
Happens on a weekly basis.

7) Have a best friend?
I think I have like three. ^^;

8) Are you a boy or girl?
A girl... Who wishes she was a boy.

9) What is your relationship status?
Single... *stab stab stab*

10) How do you want to die?
I want to be knocked out in an epic battle and then have my body shoved into a cement grinder, so all my entrails can be spread all over.

11) What did you eat last?
Pizza, while waiting for DI to end.

12) Played any sports?
I played tennis and badminton.

13) Do you bite your nails?
Nope. I don't like my hands so I don't look at them.

14) When was your last physical fight?
In my imagination today, I stared at question 38 for twenty minutes while I kicked this guy in the ribs and poured hot coffee on his crotch.

15) Do you have an attitude?
Ugh... With my mother, and Mabs... Otherwise... No...

16) Ever Been Arrested?
No, no no no.

17) What is your real name?
KING RICHARD THE LION HEART!

18) Do you have a lot of friends?
Kind of, not really. I don't really like that many of my friends...

19) Are you gonna get drunk later?
No. Alcohol tastes gross... Not only that but I always spell it wrong.

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
No... I have trouble really hating someone...

21) Do you miss someone?
Well... YES! T:

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
TWIRL IT! SHIT IS SO GOOD! And with meat balls its even better! :3

23) Do you tan a lot?
No, I freckle... And then I look like a cancer patient. It's gross.

24) Have any pets?
1 cat, 1 dog, 5ish chickens and a pet sock.

25) Exactly how are you feeling?
WHY YOU GETTIN' ALL IN MY BIDNIZ? I WILL POP A CAP IN YOUR ASS!

26) Ever eaten food in the car while someone or yourself is driving?
No. I have a fear of that. It's called YOU'RE STUPID!

27) Ever Made Out in the bathroom?
No... Wait... Yes. Ehhhhhhhh.

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
Sad negative comment. Optimistic insightful sentence. Rant on how I'm worthless. Unhappy face. Listening to more Phoenix. Watches (500) Days of Summer again. Moving on to next question.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
If you're referring to my brother's legs, then yes, I am.

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
YES! I would use those save points like no other!

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
... *cough* Yes.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
DI, Draw, sew, Maybe hang with Crysi, Maybe hang with Holly, ignore Tobi, listen to more Lisa Mitchell, find some nicer clothes.

33) Do you want to Have Kids?
I won't get married. I won't be a single parent. A+B>C

34) Ever kissed somebody whose name starts with an M?
Yes... Actually...

35) Do you type fast?
Do you care? That's right, take my attitude that I said I didn't have!

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
I had two in each ear, and then I let them fill in because I didn't care.

37) Want any more?
Lots lots more.

38) Can you spell well?
Kind of? Better than retarded kids, but not as good as most kids at my unintellectual level.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
... YES. It's name was Happiness.

40) What are you craving right now?
Sleep? True love? Not being at my mom's this weekend?

41) Ever been to a bonfire party?
If you are referring to... No. I haven't.

42) When is the last time you went shopping?
Uh... Over Christmas break.... For not Christmas presents. lol.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
I used to have my own. =]

44) Kissed someone in a pickup truck?
No. Pickup trucks are just too good for me. >:

45) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yup yup yup.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
Not that I know of. Maybe mentally.... Like he undressed a girl/walrus with his eyes, Idk, I have no idea what any of them thought about.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I'm pretty sure I made Mark cry.

48) Did you speak to your father today?
Yes, yes, yes! <3

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Indeed. Maybe for a year or two?

50) What should you be doing?
Trying to sleep.

51) What's irritating you right now?
Other people, myself...

52) Have you ever liked someone so much That it hurts?
... Ugh... In most ways possible... Which sounds weird, but once you experience it, you understand.

53) Does somebody love you?
My computer! <3

54) What is your favorite color?
Teal, grey, black, blue, sky blue, and gold.

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes. It's annoying, but fun.

56) Do you have a phone?
Yeeeah~

57) Do you have trust issues?
Really bad ones. I'm also lactose intolerant, a compulsive liar, and have a mild case of social phobia, and eremophobia. And I'm a misanthrope. Thanks for asking. =]

58) Are you gonna get high later?
Hurpa, I'm listenning to 'She's got you high' :icontrollfaceplz:

59) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
No.... BUT I SHOULD TRY!

60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Somewhat. We have trouble communicating.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Holly or Crysi... I only teared up with Crysi. Well unless my computer counts...

64) Do you give second chances too easily?
Yes. Too easily.

65) Is It Easier To forgive or forget?
Forgive. I never, ever forget. My memory is weird. I normally forgive really easily too.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
So far, I don't want to be a downer, but its sucked major platypus foot.

67) What was your childhood nickname?
Patty? >:

69) Do you think you're a good person?
I'm a very nice person, but that's because I'm extremely insecure. Overall, I don't think so. I'm very judgmental, and mean, but I try not seem it.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Yes. What the reason... Idk.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Talked to Mabs about whales, talked to Korey, and naturally washed off my eye make-up.

72) Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Who?
... WHY TODAY? WHY NOT A FEW DAYS AGO? ;-;

73) What is bothering you?
So much.

74) Have you ever been out of town?
ALL THE TIME. Walked to Meridian yesterday. =]

75) Do you play the Wii?
Yes, but I haven't played in a while since I find most video games boring.

76) Are you listening to music right now? What song?
'She's got you high.' before that Sweet Disposition. It's the soundtrack from (500) Days of Summer.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
No... MSG makes me feel really sick.

78) Do you know your father's birthday?
June 5.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Yes, very much so. I sleep with my closet light on and my computer monitor on playing music.

80) Is cheating ever okay?
No... It's not... Ever... Meeeeerh....

81) Are you mean?
>: When I really try!

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
No. I think imperfect things are beautiful.

83) Have you noticed at this survey stopped getting personal?
It's nais~

84) Do you believe in true love?
Kind of, no. 'Everyone you love will either reject you or die.'

85) Are you proud of the person you've become?
Some aspects... Others I REALLY need to work on.

86) Have you ever been out of state?
Yeah. =] I've been out of country as well.

88) Do you like the outside?
I really like it. I love the warm sun as it falls on my face. I love the hot wind that sweeps my hair away. I love the cold rain that chills between my toes. I love cold grass below you on a hot day. I do not love how cold it has been lately. >:

89) Are you bored Currently?
... Not bored. Bored isn't the right word.

90) Do you want to get married?
No.

91) Is it cute When the boy/girl calls you baby?
Its gross. Reminds me of infants.

92) Are you hungry?
No.

93) Do you have a bank account?
Yes.

94) What makes you happy?
Warm days, soft grass, sleeping in until its late, getting up early enough to see the sunrise, feeling the sun on your face, being pulled into a kiss, people who will love you no matter what, being perfectly happy with wasting a day, feeling accepted, those really lame jokes in movies, when guys don't realize they have mexi-staches, bubble bathes, feeling safe in someone's arms, trusting someone with all of your organs, playing pokemon with friends, when people you barely know call you beautiful, movies that make you feel better, music that makes you feel emotions that were locked away, not feeling numb, finger painting, 11:11, dreaming of people you miss, those random bursts of poetry, sleeping in my sister's bed while she types, The alive feeling you get from breathing in cold spring air, walking home with a friend, doing random creative things, dressing nicely, having you all to myself, truly laughing, etc

95) Would you change your name?
... I might start using Tye, instead of Patty or Patricia.

96) Ever been to Alaska?
I wish. >:

97) The best memory you've HAD in the Library?
1.)Running around the very top floor, making fun of people and magazines.
2.)Reading poetry early that morning.
3.)Going through all the music with Mab

98) Do you watch the news?
Nope. Nosotros no teniamos el television.

99) What's your zodiac sign?
Cancer and Dog.

100) Do you like Subway?
Shits good.

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Then we stay best friends!

103) Do you talk like your friends?
Kind of, but mostly not.

104) Do you like to talk to your friends?
Yes, unless they're being stupid. Then no.

105) Have you ever seen someone you Knew & purposely Avoided Them?
Yea yea yea. EVERYBODY DOIN' THE FISH!

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
... Kind of?

107) Who is the last guy you talked to?
My dick.

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yes!... That'd be gross. I would not kiss that.

109) Do you go to church?
I went last Saturday.

110) What's going on between you and your best friend?
I think we're bonding? Idk...

111) Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Sullivan? Mabs?... Yeah, probably.

112) Regretted letting someone go?
I don't let people go that I like. ;_;

113) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos?
I don't care for either.

114) What do you wear more: jeans, sweats, pants, or shorts?
Jeans, and shorts. =]

115) You're a Sharpie marker, what color are you?
Giraffe Yellow!

116) Where do you go if you are butt naked and locked out of your house?
Run through the neighborhood screaming about how it was hot in there so I had to take off all my clothes.

117) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
Night. Because then my hair isn't freezing as I drive to school. True story.

118) Have you ever said you'd never love again?
To myself. But never to others.

119) Do you want to please everyone?
Yes. All the time...

120) Have you heard the song that reminds you of someone today?
Today has been dedicated to someone because I can't think of anyone else.

121) Has someone ever made you a promise & it broken?
All the time... ;_;

122) Are you alone?
Uh... In my room? Yes. In my life? No. Do I feel alone? Yes.

123) Do you have any older siblings?
one brozo and one lesbo.

124) Fave film you've seen lately?
Social Network was good. SO WAS TRON! D<

125) How many months until your birthday?
Six, yo.

Going to go try to sleep now.
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Lawwwwwl

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Lol, Why am I up this early? Why? Haha.

I don't know, I just am.

Eating some Nerds too. Pretty delicious.

I'm going to go study spanish in a minute, since I was upset last night and went straight to bed.

EOCs this week, wish me luck! <3

I'm a little scared for today, but more for after school than anything. I'm going to say everything, and maybe, MAYBE, I will go home feeling like a decent person... Can there be a even semi-happy ending to this story?

I wish there was a prize in this box so I felt better about eating so many Nerds in so little time.

Going to go to Coffee with Aishia in like three hours. Yay! <3

Gah! I just finished my Rainbow Nerds. ;_; Rest in Peace my delicious children.

Overall, everything is getting better. I really want to make Katie a Pikachu cake this weekend... I'm actually really excited... It should be really fun.

The rain in Spain lands completely on the plane. The thoughts in life end completely in vain.

I may have lines on my face that separate my cheeks and my lower mouth area, but I don't have walls that protect my eyes from excreting salty water when I'm upset. The rain may falls with large velocity, but it's much easier to wipe off my windshield than the simple thoughts of you.  An electron may have 1/1836 of the mass a proton has, but the electrons you create mean more to me than two tons of what anyone else says. But none of this means anything, if you don't want it to. The thoughts that flow from my ears and nose and eyes and other orifices may hover over my head and show my true emotions, but I'll set them free and let them fly high if my dreams are starting to weigh on your shoulders.

WHAT IN THE HECK? WHY IS THE VENT IN MY ROOM GIVING OFF COLD AIR?

Ugh, I'm sorry my brain makes no sense. ;_;

And I'm sorry I always get myself into these situations. I think I try to care about different things intensely for periods of time, but I realize they're not what I want. I'm waiting for a movie ending, I wonder what I'll do when I get it. I only fall in love with people I can't have, and I only kiss people I know I won't work out with. I only act like I have confidence when I'm after someone, but I only have confidence when there's nothing I want. I only sleep when I'm unhappy and I only eat when I'm worried. I only tell the truth when I trust you like me as a person no matter what, and I always fuss about how I look if my face isn't smothered in cover up to hide the bags under my eyes and the subtle lack of acne on my rosy red cheeks. I'll always care, I just thought it was cooler if I didn't. You may have spend lots on money and time on me, but the other you is the only one I want, and I may have spent lots of time and money on him, but he wants another me. And I guess that's okay.

It's okay if everything I've worked for with you ends tomorrow, and it's okay if all you wanted was physical when all I wanted to emotional, because I never loved you, I just cared about you deeply. It's okay if I was using you as something that gave me some kind of passion, and it's okay if you were just using me because you knew that you'd feel less pathetic if you were playing with something you had full control over. There's still mud in my car and on my shoes.

My large cat eyes may look with pure want when they glance at you, but the saccade will mean nothing if they shuffle awkwardly back to the wall when you try to make a connection with them. I would have fain ended this before it started, but you started it. I was only joking when I sent you that text today, I just wanted to continue the conversation, but I guess it's good that new pieces to the puzzle were put in place. I know I'm afraid to change anything with you, because I'm afraid of how delicate the situation is, but the memories I would have made with you in the future would have meant nothing if this relationship was as empty to you as you act it is.

I'm sorry for using this journal as a diary, I'm sorry for openly writing what's going on privately, but your mud is still all over the floor in my car.
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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

I did these all in one day. Yeah, I'm that crazy.

Day 10~
One Confession.
I really, really, want to go to the store right now and buy stuff to make a bubble bath and a bunch of toys to play with... Playing with toys in the bath is so much fun! Plz don't judge me...

Day 9~
Two smileys that describe your life right now.
I'll put them and then put a small explanation.
:icondizzy-plz: There has been so much going on as of lately.
:iconihavebagsplz: I'm always tired, even when I sleep 12 hours.


Day 8~
Three turn ons.
These are mostly going to be physical, but I'll try to make them also emotional and stuff... lol.
1. Curly unkempt hair, that is dirty blond. Defiantly glasses, with the combo of baggy shirts, long hoodies, and baggy pants. That or brunettes with bleached blonde hair. I have no idea why I love blondes so much but I just really think they're attractive.
2. Guys who can play instruments. Just singing is kind of weird, but playing the guitar and singing is so beautiful. Lullabies are possibly the sweetest most romantic things in the world
3. Intelligent guys who know more than me, and can just pull rants out of their ass about things I've never even heard of. I love intelligent people <3
3 1/2. Guys who smell good. Old spice smells really good on guys. 'nuff said.

Day 7~
Four turn offs.
Okay... Uh... Yeah... There are more that four, but I'll just say my top ones.
1. Whiny, weak, or low self esteem people. I know I'm a hypocrite because of last one, but I honestly don't like me, even though I am working on it, a lot of people just do it for compliments. I feel like strength is beautiful and if you need to whine about how much you hate your life, you need to be punched. I hate it, because these are the people who get offended by jokes and can't really talk to you because you're afraid to break their fragility, and it pisses me off.
2. People who are slutty. Now there is a huge difference in my mind between slutty and lonely. There is a degree, when you're willing to give your heart for attention and when you want to get laid. I don't mind people who have physical needs and want to bang a chick for a week, that's all good, but people who will flop from guy to guy saying they love them all through the whole thing make me want to grind up a brick and make it into old school toothpaste. It's the same people who tell you they want to live the rest of their lives with you after one week of dating. It's fudging retarded. It's pathetic. Most people are unintelligent and would settle down with any bloke who would love them. I hate that. Love is love, it's not a passage to get a wedding and kids, it's truth and beauty and perfection. Love is tricky. It's not 'She hasn't done anything wrong so I like her.' it's 'She is amazing and perfect and her strengths and weaknesses are all beautiful.' Marriage isn't something you do to have kids, it's something you do because you honestly love the person.
3. Lack of passion. Not like being lost in life, but like not liking anything and not being able to create anything,and just sitting around all day until you have a stupid kid because you can't create so you have to procreate.
4. Unintelligent people. 'nuff said.

Day 6~
Five people who mean a lot
Ugh, wow.... There are only like two, but I'll just say people so everyone feels important.
1. Curt
2. Mabs.
3. All my school friends?
4. All my other friends.
5. All of the world and stuff yeah.

Day 5~
Six things you wish you'd never done.
There are a lot more... But they're little things... ;_;
1. Gone out with Sullivan.
2. Not joined the K-pop fandium when everyone else did.
3. Not worked on my cosplay very much.
4. Been afraid to ask Grandma questions before she died.
5. Spent all that money at the fair. ;_;
6. Not payed attention to my grades this year, and the end of last.

Day 4~
Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
... I'm weird, but it's... not a total bad thing. =]
1. Poetry, just little rhyming phrases or songs I make up as I walk.
2. Cool words I want to say and include in my everyday vocabulary.
3. How I need to read more.
4. How I wish there was more time in a day.
5. What other people think of me and what I need to improve on.
6. How much I dislike me, but how I need to have more self confidence...
7. Pictures I really want to take or pictures I really want to draw, maybe story plots I want to write.

Day 3~
Eight ways to win your heart.
Ugh, don't judge me...
1. Give me lots of taste food, because I'm a fatty.
2. Joke around with me a bunch and almost be cruel with how far you take things.
3. Have blonde or unkept hair, and add glasses to that. <3
4. Be extremely truthful. But still be sensitive.
5. Never ever ask me to buy you stuff. If I buy you stuff without you saying anything then I really like you. If I get a bit annoyed I probably don't care for you much.
6. Be intelligent. Know how to argue well and have poetry that you like.
7. Be a spontaneous person who isn't afraid to break the rules and do what you want.
8. Know about things I don't like guns, and be willing to tell me about these things.

Day 2~
Nine things about yourself.
Nice things? Geh.
1. I have pretty hair that flows in the wind and shines in the sunlight.
2. I'm a really open person and if you explain yourself when you talk to me I won't judge you.
3. I'm really creative no matter what I'm doing.
4. I love the summer and the warm parts of the spring and fall. I love watching the leaves turn orange, and I love watching the rivers fill.
5. I like to joke a lot, and I'm not the kind of person who will hate you or stop talking to you for one thing. I'm in no way fragile.
6. I'm know how to do most artsy things pretty well.
7. I'm not the kind of person that snaps.
8. If I am ever in a relationship where I actually love and care about the person I'm pretty sure I'll be the best girlfriend in the world.
9. I don't follow trends, I normally make them... Kind of.

Day 1~
Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

So yes, about half these people do have accounts on here, but Idk, I'm not sure if anyone will figure it out, I tried to be pretty veg and all that.

1.)Dear you, I really wish you would not guilt me into continually being by your side. It's just kind of wrong to exploit someone with that choice of morals or what they desire, in the end it just hurts you more, and makes me hate you bit by bit. I should have ended this weeks ago, I should have ended it before it started; why I didn't I have no idea. I can't stand you, everything about you pisses me off. It's like you had one of my good friends write you a list of everything I hate in a person and then modeled yourself after every part of them. So you know what? I'm going to just keep this going and in the end tell you how much of a lie its been. I only said 'yes' because I felt bad for you and promised you 'I'd give you a chance'. I always thought that if I spent enough time with someone I'd fall in love with them, but you obviously made that a completely false statement. If you listened to anything I said you'd know that all of the things you've worked so hard on are pretty retarded. Why in the world would I want to play online FF games with you? They're expensive, and I've told you how much I hate wasting my life on pointless things, but you make a laptop purely so I can borrow it from you for months on end and play with you online? Jesus, are you that desperate? Can you not sense the awkward I generate around you? Did you not see the difference between how happy I was with you and how I became when my friend plopped out of no where? It was so noticeable! I have to force myself to think of things to say to you. When I get your texts I yell at the phone and tell it how much I hate you. I thought that if I stayed with you, I would at least not be lonely, but if anything it just internalized my feelings and now I don't want to be romantic with anyone at all. I couldn't even finish the awesome Christmas present I had planned to make you because I feel like it will be wasted on your retarded. Gawd, how I loath you. It's so sad, you're pretty physically attractive by most girls standards, so why do you suck at being a boyfriend so much? Are you mentally handicapped? What the hell is wrong with your brain? When I break up with you, and how I can't wait for that, I won't even tell you what you did wrong, I'll just say 'there has been a disturbance in the force. I can't be with you anymore.' and then I'll walk away, leaving you to wondering and tear yourself apart wondering what you did wrong. Such a bitch. Gawd, you need to die. Every time I wrote you a romantic note I had to use feelings I had for former boyfriends and crushes to say something remotely romantic and sweet. I hope you know I really hate you, everything about you. Why you do the things you do piss me off to no end. You're a fucking retard.

2. My lovely <3. I missed you and still do. I feel like we don't connect as much as we used to, but even so, your presence still makes me really happy. I like listening to you talk about your role plays because I like hearing your passion. You work much harder at anything than I do. It bothers me how butt hurt you get though, I wish you'd let me teach you how to let go if friends are being stupid. Overall, I still really love you, but I wish I could talk to you about more things. It feels like when I try to talk to you about things you don't understand. You know? It's like you make immoral choices, but you won't let me? I'm in no way above you. Another thing, I wish you would tell me when I'm doing something that bothers you instead of talking behind my back with it. It's really mean, and makes me feel like you don't care, even though I know you do. You're one of the few people I can really say I love and mean it, so thank you for that. :heart:

3. I really like talking to you, I feel like anything I say, no matter what it is, you'll understand. Like to be honest I feel like I could happily live the rest of my life with you and just be happy having a super good friend who I could talk to all the time and never tire of. Even though you're a guy, I feel like I don't have to be romantic towards you and you'll still find me worth talking to. I like hanging with you, I wish I would have seen you much more before you left for college. Even so, talking to you online still makes me really happy. I like how we can be deep in a conversation and just stop talking when both of us become preoccupied by something else.  You're really great, I hope you come back soon so we can hang, because I totally miss you.

4. To be honest I've always really liked you, from when I first laid eyes on you to even now. I've always thought you were beautiful, and I hate it when you say otherwise. I like listening to you talk about all your interests, even if I have trouble really finding them interesting. It worries me how you are so bad at taking care of yourself, and how your moods change really bugs me. I know it's hard with six periods in a day to try to be a constant person, but all I wish it that you wouldn't be a total bitch for a week period and then a really nice person the next and then blame it on other people. I wish you'd be happy all the time, because when you're happy your smile makes the world worth all the pain, and when you laugh you make me want to hug you and never let go. Seeing you makes me so happy, I don't know what to do, I just want to dance from the music of life you bring with you. I wish I could tell you this in person, I wish I could hold you close and whisper how much you mean to me, but I can't, I won't, and I never will, because I'm not okay with ruining our friendship, so who ever you end up with, be happy. Please find something worth all the trouble and stick to it.

5. When I think of you I have no idea where to start... Honestly, I have no idea what to think... I feel betrayed when I think of you, but at the same time honored. I hate you, but I also love you. You can be such a dick all the time, but you can be so sweet and intelligent. I know I could never have all of you, I know you could never be satisfied with just me, and I could never be happy with just you. You're not an item to me, you're not a tool, you're a real person, someone who is complex and hard for me to understand, but also beautiful and simple. I wish you didn't do the numb sack of things you do. I want to slap you because you're such an idiot sometimes, yet I can't stop from thinking about you... You make me realize I can't have everything I want. There have been times when all I could do was think of you, you're the only person who I've loved that isn't part of my family, and I find that really crazy, but at the same time, I really like it. You're someone who I feel like I connect with, I feel like we often have the same look on life, I feel like I think about things the same way you do. Life is weird like that. I want to become more intelligent for you, but not just more naturally intelligent, like I want to know more about the world for you. I want to be everything you want in a girl. I'm afraid to talk to you in fears of wasting your time, and when we do hangout I don't know what to say. lol, and I think you wear Old Spice deodorant. XD Because that's what you smell like.

6. To be honest I miss our friendship. I miss how close we used to be years ago. You're so pretty, I feel weird being around you, and you're so funny I feel one upped all the fudging time. I feel like I've taken a lot of myself from you, just because I always idolized you. To be honest I never thought you did anything bad, I was afraid you did, because I always thought I was never good enough to hangout with and I tried to justify why you'd be my friend. Ugh, sorry this sounds weird. Idk.

7. I'm so glad we're related, there is nothing I could type here that I couldn't tell you in real life. It's like we know what each other are thinking without having to say anything, and I really like it. You know when to draw the line, and you always know the right thing to say. I love hanging out with you, I love talking to you. You're so smart, I hope, no I aspire to be like you someday. You are amazing. I love you so much.

8. You kind of bug the shit out of me. You have this layer of niceness, but after that layer you become extremely judgmental and mean, and I hate it. I feel like if I make one wrong move you'll never be my friend, I hate how fragile you are. I hate how bitter you are with relationship. I hate how you will cry on one wrong comment and then tell people how strong you are. You're so weak. You're so lonely. You're so pathetic. You're so insecure about yourself, and I hate it. You tell me you want to do my make-up but you totally suck at it. I know I'm now one of your best friends but I really don't like it.

9.When I first met you and got to know you, you scared me and bugged me. I never knew you that well until this summer, and even then I felt separate from you. I love how truthful you are with me. You can say 'You totally suck at dancing' and not worry about it, and I totally love it. You're not afraid of offending anyone, you're strong and protected, I feel like I'm only starting to understand you, and I think that's beautiful. You are amazing, in every way. I feel like we have similar humor, and I feel like I never have to worry about us being more than friends, we will always be just friends and it makes me really happy, because I'll never have to worry about losing you. You're super great. =] I love that we have inside jokes, and I love how chill you are. I can tell you anything and you won't judge me. It's perfect. I get jealous and wish I could be the only one you look at, but I know that's not okay. I hope we can always be friends. PS I love you separate business with pleasure.

10. You are the biggest bitch slut I have ever met in my entire life, you make me want to fucking slap a baby across the face. If you were feeling lonely you would give head to fucking eagle. You are the reason people consider woman retarded. You are the reason I hate going to my committee one Thursday... BECAUSE I HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU. It's not fair you are smaller boned than me, you don't deserve it, and in two years when you are super overweight and go anorexic and then kill your metabolism so when you clean up you get super fat, I will laugh at you. I will laugh so hard the whole school will hear my cackle. How you have friends I don't know, but they're probably all fake. I hate you so much. You think you're so much better than everything, news flash, NO ONE LIKES YOU! So when I leave Borah for good, I will tell you how much you suck and watch as you flail and realize that you suck at arguing and that you're a slut bitch. I can't wait until you get pregnant and live off my tax money. I will work hard to make you have to live on the streets. Your offspring will probably be retarded just like you. Fucktard.

... You guys should also do this in a day, because it's actually kind of fun and nice, and I'd like to read what you say....
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